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The RED Savior: Lyndsie’s Story, Part 4

Nov

06

Part 1: The Strength Beneath the Pink

Part 2: Releasing Vanity

Part 3: Beneath the Beautiful

Part 4: The Red Savior

Part 5: Story of her life

For updates, follow her story on Facebook

To help, visit: Care for Lyndsie

To become her friend, she created a page just for all of you. Just ask here

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Well here we are again. The last time we all got together to check in on Lynds, we were shaving her head!  At that point, Lyndsie had cut her hair and it started to fall out. She decided that she did not want to go through that, so she decided to shave it.  During that point in her treatment, she had been going to Chemotherapy every Wednesday. She was doing the more “gentle” Chemo at that point, getting ready for what is nicknamed the “Red Devil”.  Her husband decided in fact it should be named the “Red SAVIOR”, for it would be the last type of Chemo given to Lyndsie to shrink her tumor before her double mastectomy. It could in fact save her life.

Well I am here to report there is good news.  1. Lyndsie prayed to God to not take her hair.  She had some serious hair. She knew that of course she’d rather be bald than sick, but she prayed it would hang on. When it started to thin, she accepted it and shaved it. It was sort of a “re-beginning” she would go on to say in her “loopy Lyndsie” posts we have all grown to laugh at.  Well, now she’s the one laughing. When the doctors told her she would be totally bald then loose her eyelashes, etc.,  by the end of the 12 weeks of her first type of chemo, her hair started to GROW BACK! No joke.  So she’s laughing, saying that God said “see Lyndise, I told you to trust me.” Shows us humans :). 2.  Her tumor is shrinking. At her doctors appointment, which you will see in the video, he said it’s smaller. Not only did he say so, the mammogram she would later have, said so as well. Praise God.  3. Lyndsie is happier than ever.

Here is a video of my day with Lyndsie.  This day shows her first day getting the Red Devil (Savior) type of Chemo.  This type of Chemo is MUCH stronger.  She was pretty nervous.  With her first round, she had an allergic reaction and her airway closed up, making it an eventful…to say the least…first round.  She’d gone through 12 weeks tough as nails, so why would she be any different. And she wasn’t.  With the first 12 weeks, because of her reaction, she was given tons of IV benadryl along with other allergy, pain, etc meds. This is where the Loopy Lyndise posts were born. She would sit there in hours of Chemo, and write all of us crazy Facebook followers and sound, well, on drugs lol. As she was. Small disclaimer here. I came up with the loopy Lyndsie term, I will have you know :).

Well, with this type of Chemo, she was not given all the pre-drugs. I had this WHOLE shoot planned. She was gonna be ALL sorts of goofy and I was going to video the WHOLE loopy Lyndsie post. It was going to be HILARIOUS. The thing is, she never got loopy. Actually, it was FAST! I was SHOCKED! Well the day was not fast but the Chemo was. Just a few hours.

When I arrived, I met her, her hubby and sis in the waiting room. I’d been hanging onto a love gift I’d gotten for her for making my sons birthday cake. She’s a for real pastry chef. Amazing.  It was a glass locket containing each birth stone of everyone in her family, as well as a charm that said hope.  So she opened it and put it on. As I looked at her beautiful self, she looked as if she didn’t belong there. She’s young. She’s strong. She had an entourage of people with her (her sis, hubby and myself). Her mom was at home being an EXTREMELY important grandmother to her little kiddos. She told me how hard it was to not be there with HER baby. But Lyndsie needed her more to be there for hers.  So as I looked around, the room was full of some VERY sick people. Let’s  be honest, it was pretty horrifically sad. Like a horrible movie. Depressing.  There were many people there waiting to get Chemo who really could have used a big giant hug.    I tried to not stare, knowing many in that room had loved ones at home that would probably not have them around for much longer. Again, praise God for putting a healing hand so far on Lyndsie.

We walked back and they took her blood out of her port to make sure her white blood cell count was up. It was. So on she went. After her blood draw, we went to a different part of the hospital  to see her doctor for a checkup before she started her new treatment. Like I said, it was fast, the tumor was shrinking, and she’s amazing. Next,  back to get her Chemo treatment.  We walked down the halls, past person after person getting their Chemo treatment, fighting to save their lives.  Here’s the thing with Lyndsie.  She had not thought about death until a few days before I saw her at the hospital this time.  One day she was driving and it finally crossed her mind.  Then she cried. Then the thought left. It’s not an option. That’s the thing with her. She’s a fighter. Cup half full. It’s worked. She’s kicking cancers ass.

Before I forget. You know what she does when she gets home after EACH chemo session????  SHE RUNS! Like as in RUNNING. Yeah. Crazy. She’s amazing.  Another random fact…that big sign you see on her RED chemo…means don’t get it on your skin or it will eat it away like the plant on Little Shop Of Horrors. But yet it’s being injected directly into her blood stream. Insane.

During her Chemo I asked one of her amazing nurses about her treatment and what to expect. I cut out the part about peeing red lol.  Figured we didn’t need ALL that info ;).

Here are some highlights of my visit with Lyndsie. Until next time.  Which will be in a few weeks, then, at her double mastectomy operation.  Make sure to turn it up there are parts that may be kinda quiet.  Thank you God for this gift of photography. It’s brought me to meet a new best friend.

 

Feel free to leave her some love on here. She’s reads each and every note.

Lyndsie Part 4 from Emily Lucarz Photography on Vimeo.

 

 

 

I love you and your entire family, my new dear friend. xoxoxoxo to the moon and back, Emily   fb2

 

 

 

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  1. Jen E. says:

    Emily, you’re an angel to bring us such an inspirational story as Lyndsie’s. I’m amazed at how she is so strong and bringing her faith to so many. Lyndsie – God bless you!

  2. Trisha Moul says:

    I have been following your story for such a short time yet I feel as if I know you, that we are friends 😉 Bless Emily for taking this journey with you. You are in my heart, thoughts and prayers! Stay strong and continue kicking cancers ASS.

  3. Amy says:

    Praying for you, Lyndsie! I definitely believe all things are possible through prayer and you are getting lots of them! You look gorgeous, hair or no hair but I am happy to hear your beloved locks are growing back! Can’t wait till this is a distant memory for you!!

  4. Brittney Davis says:

    Lyndsie- You are a beam of light girlfriend! It just radiates off of you. You are so beautiful and I absolutely look forward to reading about your journey. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. -Brittney Davis

  5. Kelly Wilk says:

    I am a breast cancer survivor and am approaching my 8 year anniversary of my diagnosis! As I look at Emily’s posts of your battle (and I know some people like to call it your “journey” but it truly is a battle!) it touches me to the core…. You are me, 8 years ago! I had my mastectomy first and then 6 months of chemo and then radiation… didn’t think it would ever end, but it did! I’m alive, and happy and that’s all that matters! Hang in there girl! I know it may seem that there isn’t a light at the end of the tunnel…but there is! Seems you have lots of love and support around you…drink it in…It will make you strong and make you fight harder! Sending love and positive wishes your way beautiful lady!

  6. Ali Burnett says:

    Great blog post! Lyndsie, you are one AMAZING WOMAN!! Keep kicking cancers ass! I’m truly inspired by your strength and tenacity 🙂 you can beat this! I’ll send a hug to you they Emily, she’s pretty awesome too 😉

  7. Donna Godair says:

    Beautiful. Amazing and touching!!!!! Such a strong beautiful person and story. Keep up the good work Emily and Lyndsie. Praying for complete healing.

  8. Marie Bohn says:

    Beautiful woman, Beautiful family, Beautiful heart. This brought tears to my eyes instantly, I am following your story and wish you well on your journey. I have been visiting my oncologist for 2 months now tracking my blood work and watching this I can only slightly relate.

  9. Cyndie Thoele says:

    Thank-you our sweet Emily. Been a long time since I cried so hard I couldn’t catch my breath. I always start each Wed. with a note to Lyndsie to remind her of her angels all around her. I do believe I saw a halo around you in one of your pictures! You truly are a visible angel on earth! xoxox Love you X 3! Cyndie (Lyndsie’s mom)

  10. Kathy Zaidel says:

    Em-You are just amazing. Lyndsie you are such an inspiration! Keep fighting like a girl! 🙂

  11. Jenny says:

    Your husbands hand on your butt on the way out… My fav – thinking of you and praying for you every single day.

  12. Krista says:

    Words are a bit difficult to come by in reflecting upon this life changing experience (especially that of a strangers)…I will just say this. Thank you for sharing this window into your life. Your smile was a pre-ordained gift from the Lord, for from it I can see the blessings that surround you (your family, your sweet friends, and your caring nurses), and also your fight. From one woman, Mother, and wife to another…I pray that you would be comforted by our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I’m asking Him to bring you through this difficult time healthier physically, spiritually, and emotionally.
    God bless you!
    ~Krista

    (and on a much lighter note…your scarf and flower are super cute and fun :})

  13. CiCi says:

    Dearest Lyndsie- I’ve been following your story from day one. Your strength, attitude and will to fight inspire and amaze me. The fact that you smile in the face of cancer is a true testament to your amazing spirit. God is with you… I know He is. Though I don’t know you personally, I feel blessed to have been connected to you through your amazing story. You are a reminder to us all to embrace each day, never give up, love life, and most of all….trust in yourself, and trust in God. I happen to be a photographer, and I have appreciated every moment of getting to know you through the lens. This is a difficult thing that most people would rather not document. I love that you are showing the world the perfect formula (a smile, and the best attitude EVER) for kicking cancers ass! I’m sending all my love and prayers your way! One thing is for sure… Cancer has definitely not taken your beauty. You are gorgeous inside and out. Stay beautiful, and stay you! Praying for you! xo

  14. Laura T. says:

    Wow Emily! That was so beautiful! Your work is amazing:) and Lyndsie….you are such a brave, beautiful and courageous young woman! You’re an inspiration to us all:) Keep fighting like a girl!!!!

  15. Liz Francis says:

    Wow!! Emily, what an amazing gift you have given to Lyndsie and all of us who are following her journey! Lyndsie, keep fighting and stay strong. You are such an inspiration to all of us. Love you girl!!

  16. Joanne Paradis says:

    Emily – thank you for continuing to share our beautiful Lyndsie’s story. She is definitely Superwoman and you are documenting her journey so beautifully. Thank you!

  17. Joanne Paradis says:

    Oh, and the song……took my breath away and brought tears to my eyes….Beautiful.

  18. Britneye Ladner says:

    Of course I cried like a big baby again. Lyndsie, I can’t tell you enough how much your strength is an inspiration to me. Your struggle makes all of my worries seem so tiny. I’m doing a bible study right now on the book of David. And you remind me so much of him, a woman after God’s own heart carrying His strength with you.

    1 Samuel 17:34-37 “34 But David said to Saul, “Your servant has been keeping his father’s sheep. When a lion or a bear came and carried off a sheep from the flock, 35 I went after it, struck it and rescued the sheep from its mouth. When it turned on me, I seized it by its hair, struck it and killed it. 36 Your servant has killed both the lion and the bear; this uncircumcised Philistine will be like one of them, because he has defied the armies of the living God. 37 The Lord who rescued me from the paw of the lion and the paw of the bear will rescue me from the hand of this Philistine.””

    I can just see you saying, “Really cancer? Who do you think you are? Do you even realize who you’re going up against? I am a soldier in the army of the living God, and He will rescue me from you!” I love your heart. Praying for you sweet girl.

    Lots of love,
    Britneye

  19. Melanie Hirl says:

    Watching this brought back SO many memories. I am an 8 1/2 year bc survivor and all is well!! You can do it sweetheart. I will add my prayers to the others….that is what got me through, and it will you, too! Big hug!

  20. Cheryl says:

    Keep kicking it, Lindsie!! I am a sister survivor, today marks two years since I was diagnosed. You are inspiring! You are bringing Glory to God with your beautiful smile and positive attitude. You can do all things through Christ who gives you strength!!

  21. Jillian Rahn-Kaergard says:

    Lyndsie- I have been following your journey since the beginning. You are an amazing and inspiring woman. Each night before I say my prayers I follow-up on your day and send an extra prayer your way. God will keep you and your family strong.

  22. Natalie says:

    So happy for you Lyndsie!! Stay strong!!

  23. Miranda says:

    O Lyndsie your strength is so amazing, you are truly on of a kind. I love love love that you are kicking cancers ASS. You deserve it girl, your family and friends are simply wonderful. Emily you are an amazing friend to Lyndsie and one heck of a photographer. I pray for you Lyndsie and more cancer kicking strength!!!1 You are my number one hero!!

  24. suzanne sawyer says:

    i love your stories on lyndsie. your photography is amazing and so is she! i look forward to them all of the time.

  25. Vanessa Schoeps says:

    Just thinking of you, and your amazing spirit.

  26. Lindsay micevic says:

    Lyndsie you are a beautiful person inside and out I pray for you everyday. Stay strong

  27. Lovey Velasco says:

    This bought tears to my eyes what a journey!! Your strength is remarkable and this documentation of your amazing journey is breathtaking and inspiring!

  28. Joanna says:

    Lyndsie,
    I just started following your story about a few weeks ago. You are such a BEAUTIFUL and AMAZING person. I truly mean that. You are constantly on my mind and I am praying for you and your family. God bless you.
    Joanna

  29. Erin Montgomery says:

    Lyndsie…you are such an inspiration! I have enjoyed watching all the videos and seeing the photos of you and your wonderful family. You got this girl!! Stay strong through your journey…you have more prayers coming your way than you know.

  30. I can’t even watch this without sobbing. I have so many similar pictures of my sweet boy receiving the “Red Devil” (but not with the pretty soft light!). Made him pee red! haha! Emily, you’re a good friend and these pictures and videos are so amazing. I have some of Carter up in my home (one that Kelli France took in fact) that I swear will NEVER come down. Cancer changes you. Changes some people for the worse… but some for the better. They always told us that we would find a “new normal” and we have… but I kinda miss my old normal! 🙂 I hope that hair has kept coming in! It is beautiful! But balls is beautiful too!! Hugs and kisses to your family Lyndsie!!

  31. Debbie Akel says:

    Dearest Lyndsie. I’m a good friend of your Mom’s from our Jewel days. I’m also a breast cancer survivor. My thoughts and prayers go to you and your family. Hugs

  32. Kathy says:

    Be with God now, Lyndsie. You are back to your everlasting home. You will be your children’s Angel.

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